Day 44: Vata Whata?

My 500 Words

I took an Ayurveda quiz on the internet recently and found the results to be true…maybe? Or, maybe those quizzes are BS? Or, maybe Ayurveda is BS…Hard to say, hard to know. So, don’t take my word for it. Anyway, it basically says I am Vata in my mind and mostly Vata in my body. I know so little about this, though, that I am not sure if I am writing it grammatically correct in a sentence or if it should be capitalized. So, I beg your forgiveness in that regard.

So, from what I understand, a Dosha is an energy, and everyone is composed of a Dosha or a combination of Doshas. There are 3: Vata Dosha, Pitta Dosha, and Kapha Dosha. Your type can be determined by many things including preferences. Vata types, for example, prefer warmer temperatures to colder temperatures.

This is what Mindbodygreen.com has to say on the Vata:

Vata Predominant Types: Creative; Quick to learn and grasp new knowledge, but also quick to forget, Slender; Tall and a fast-walker; Tendency toward cold hands and feet, discomfort in cold climates; Excitable, lively, fun personality; Changeable moods; Irregular daily routine; High energy in short bursts; Tendency to tire easily and to overexert; Full of joy and enthusiasm when in balance; Responds to stress with fear, worry, and anxiety, especially when out of balance; Tendency to act on impulse; Often have racing, disjointed thoughts; Generally have dry skin and dry hair and don’t perspire much.

So, some of these feel kind of random to me. But, I would say that this is a fairly accurate, albeit general, description of me. From there, they recommend that you should base your nutrition and such on the recommendations associated with this type. I don’t know. Maybe I should try that? I am a vegetarian and have been for 11 years. That seems to work pretty well for me. I am moderately healthy and try to keep slim and nutritious. I like to work out but am not fanatical. I suppose a lot of this is related to my Vata Dosha…maybe.

In any case….Vata or whatta….positive is the path. The path for me is positive. My path is positive. I’m positive about my path. I’m positively positive about my path. My mom and I had a chat in the car tonight about weightloss and feelings surrounding our bodies. We talked about how nothing positive comes from negative thoughts. Positivity breeds positive results. So, pertaining to all things in life, I am going to be positive, annoyingly positive.

70 more words! Why does it feel like 700 more! I am trying to find a way to talk with my mom about things while I finish this post. Today has been crazy. I am so tired. I will persist. Joy joy joy. Be positive. Never sacrifice your joy. My new problem is how to bring as much joy to my own life and the lives of those I love. That is my goal!

Day 27: Protect Your Energy!

My 500 Words

Do you follow your soul? I think I do most of the time, but I have learned over time that my interpretation of my soul can actually be from a different source within me. Sometimes, it is a place of panic or fear dressed as the soul. The soul is never panicked. The soul knows there is plenty of time.

I have been going through some frustrations over a friend I have known most of my life and a growing realization of the nature of said friendship. It hasn’t always been a nurturing or growing relationship, and while I knew this, I chose to ignore it for most of my life. That said, current conditions have led me to interact with or around this person quite a bit lately. It has led me both to insanity and since a greater sense of clarity. So for that, I am grateful.

The situation had me angry pretty often and feeling very misused and taken for granted, not a brand new feeling in this particular friendship. I am not sure if it was the moment, the situation, or something else, but I hit the wall of what I can tolerate. I have almost entirely stopped taking calls from them and others. I find calls to be a deeply intrusive part of my day…like this better be an emergency. We can communicate by text and I don’t have to halt my life to listen to someone breathe.

Now that I think about it, this was something I blogged about towards the beginning of the challenge, prioritizing the time of others and my relationships over myself. Perhaps this is just a step in the right direction. When my phone rings, I think of a pretty picture with words that a friend sent me on instagram…”I reserve the right to protect my energy.” And, I do. I reserve the goddamn right to protect my fricken peace and my fricken energy. Because that shit is beautiful and it runs out some days. So, I need to make sure I have enough of it to last.

So, I have taken on this mindset that my time matters and that I alone can choose how to spend it. In this, I have let a lot of my anger go. When I took responsibility for answering that phone call at an inconvenient hour or stopping what I was doing to be a therapist, I realized I could stop. Immediately. Without anything terrible happening to anyone. She probably just called someone else. In doing this, I have let go of so much anger surrounding her and this situation. It was a gift, but I was too busy taking care of my time and my energy to notice.

Another friend of mine, however, did notice. We were chatting on the phone (after I called her back at a better time :)) and she asked about the situation. I told her that it was status quo but that it was fine. I told her I let go of the outcome, of how everything shakes out…and that I felt better about it. I didn’t think much of it, but she was so impressed. She commended me on how I seemed to be handling the situation.

I didn’t do it for anyone to think I did a good job. I just did it for myself, and it took my friend asking me for me to see how far I have come. Claps all around for protecting your energy. Keep that up lasses and lads!