Day 21: What is a Meaningful Career?

My 500 Words, Professional

I have become a pretty avid listener of Eckhart Tolle. He has some great advice that resonates with me, so perhaps it will resonate with you.

  1. Start with where you are. Accept the moment.
  2. Surrender. TRULY surrender to presence. Be present in every moment.
  3. Do one thing at a time at work, bringing in the possibility for space, whether it is a breath or meditation.
  4. Be grateful for the opportunity to be bored and the opportunity to practice presence.
  5. Do this and it might bring a greater sense of aliveness.
  6. Align yourself with the moment and power begins to flow through you.
  7. First the power flows into your routine activities, your relationships with colleagues, and often then change may come.

 

I love this! I have found this to always be true in my life, change has come after I have accepted exactly where I am, what I am doing, who I am loving, etc. Resistance feels like the winner’s decision, like you are telling the universe that you are better than the moment. In any case, you are making a value judgement on the moment, but the moment just is! You can’t argue with being! But, we try, and, heavens knows, I try, too!

I have done this with every job and have found that it stifles progress in my job, creativity, relationships, and just personal happiness, honestly. I cannot help but recall when I was 22 and working as a waitress. I was living with my parents after college, working at a bar/restaurant, and plotting for the future. My oh my, so much future plotting! After almost 9 months of obsessive planning and feeling trapped– the horror! Alas, I started to read more, to settle into my life, and to trust that it wasn’t forever but it was right now. I started to worry less, have more fun, build stronger relationships. I was lighter, albeit still dreaming and hoping but with excitement instead of panic.

Then, one day, right out of what seemed like the blue, a job I had applied to sent an email asking if anyone could be in Europe by Monday…as an intern had backed out of an amazing travel job opportunity. Without panic or worry, I responded that I could. The next day, we scheduled a job interview and I was on a plane the next morning. It was crazy and unexpected, but totally natural. I had aligned with my power and with the moment. Change flowed naturally through me and around me.

It was a life changing job for me, but it, too, had an expiration date. I have been trying to tap into this force of change since it happened, often without success. After the travel job, I was lost. I had lost my presence and my power. I had lost my way and found a lot of sadness had found its way into my heart and mind, originating both from the external and internal forces of life.

I will share more ways that I have found re-alignment with myself next time, but what I can share that is the theme is that the work is constant. Like losing weight, you don’t lose 30 pounds and then go back to your old ways without gaining the weight back. You don’t align yourself with presence and the power of the moment for one moment and then never again. It really is a constant practice, and practicing this more and solidifying better habits that root me to the now is my goal for 2019.

Day 13: Do You Plan Your Posts?

My 500 Words, Professional

Today, I spent a lot of time thinking about my goals, or rather my big, audacious dreams. I am maniacal about my personal information upload and try to cram most moments into brain updates of some kind. Today, I did a lot of that. One podcast I used to accomplish this was by The Life Coach School about setting impossible goals. It builds off the Tony Robbins idea that you need to change your beliefs of what is possible to achieve what was previously thought of as impossible. It resonated. So many dreams that I have yearned for in my life were buried because I thought they were impossible for me…that I could never even come close to achieving them. Crazy! If only I knew how pliable our universe is and how my biggest impediment to achievement was that very thought. Ugh…C’est la vie.

On day 1 of this challenge, I thought it was all a bit of a stretch…that I probably wouldn’t think of a way to write 500 words each day. Now, I am like…”hmph…500 words is pretty doable actually.” How sad to think I could have quit right away…and likely probably already have a trillion times before. Perhaps my first product will be some kind of challenge that anyone looking to smash those limiting beliefs. If you have a belief or an impossibility that makes accomplishing your dreams impossible, share it with me. It would be nice to know I am not alone out here! I am even thinking about starting a podcast. They are my favorite media, and it could be fun to get involved. Do you listen to podcasts?

I digress! I am thinking that I want to add one more feature to this challenge. I want to add an outline of each post…to get in the habit of thinking about what I am going to write before I do it. It might be kind of ridiculous to do this, but I want to get a better idea for how I can optimize my personal writing process. If that means that writing an outline will help, then I want to start doing that! I have gotten comfortable in the past 13 days (only 13 days, gasp!) with pumping out 500 crappy words. But, I want to add a little challenge, without abandoning my current goal of 500 words for 31 days. I will start (and finish!) the edX course “The Writing Process” that is offered by Berkeley through the awesome education platform. I think the course is an undergraduate, introductory level, but I haven’t taken a class like this in years, so I think it will be beneficial. I am also planning to take what I learn and apply it to my new goal to add an outline of my blog post and attach it for the next 18 days. My assumption is that it will improve the content and the flow with just a bit more effort…I look forward to seeing how it all shakes out!

One of my favorite sayings has always been, “trust the process.” What I will do instead is test the process and see if it makes things better 😊.

 

 

 

Day 7: Hypnotic Happiness

My 500 Words

Here I am on day 7 of the My500Word challenge! It has only been 7 days and approximately 4,000 words, but I have found this to be equal parts fun and challenging. Do you ever feel like you are just desperate to stay busy, to quiet your chaotic mind? Sometimes I feel like this is the source of much of my so-called ambition. I appear to the world as a calm, collected person, and for the most part, this is true. Inside my mind though, ideas are churning constantly and if I don’t have an outlet for this, I can grow very restless. This tends to manifest as either a compulsive outward need for activity or an inward drive for stimulation, which often means alone time. However, I am not really an introvert. I do need a certain amount of social interaction in order to feel like my best self, but balancing my need for internal stimulation and my need for company and socializing has proven to be difficult for me.

I write this in my last year of my 20s with no current solution, except to maybe try to avoid my need to compulsively seek outward stimulation to quiet my mind…at least to avoid it in any damaging manner. I feel more satisfied and alive when I have that balance between interaction with the world and interaction with my soul. Maybe in the end this is how we all feel. Maybe I am not so unique in this. And, if that is the case, what ideas do you have? Have you managed this yourself? I would love some advice as I feel this is a weak area of my life, knowing which part of myself to prioritize and when.

I admit that I did not want to write this post, tonight. I actually debated and decided (🙀) to skip tonight, as I reasoned my soul needed a rest. Simultaneously, I wondered where my life was going and why I was spending time sitting on the couch watching the tele… THEN, my sweet, bedtime-loving boyfriend went to sleep well before 8:30 PM. All of the sudden, I knew I would have some totally alone time to write this post, and I knew I would post it. Why am I so stuck when it comes to alone vs social time? How can I better manage this internal struggle? My relationship with my fella and all of my personal relationships are VERY important to me, in fact the most important to me. Maybe this is why I struggle. I prioritize family, friends, and personal relationship development over everything, including me and my alone time. I am certainly a priority, but it seems like I am #2 (at least). I see this in many areas of my life. I stop what I am doing to fit others’ schedules and fill in the gaps with things for me. I am not sure how I feel about this. Is this a healthy and normal reality of life, albeit difficult? This is something I will have to mull over for a few days.

I will find a YouTube video with constant affirmations for 20+ minutes and ponder this, while I attempt to hypnotize myself with positivity. I have a good feeling about, but it could be the positive affirmation juice I have been drinking. I can do anything. Great things keep happening to me. It’s crazy and awesome how many great things keep happening to me.